In French, you don’t really say “I miss you.” You say “tu me manques,” which is closer to “you are missing from me.”

I love that. “You are missing from me.” You are a part of me, you are essential to my being. You are like a limb, or an organ, or blood. I cannot function without you.

(Source: timorleste)

so much has happened. i quit my job.

anyway, i want a relaxing day tomorrow. if i don’t go to pittsburg for my cousin’s graduation, i would like a day for myself. it would consist of:

1. sitting in a quiet area, maybe b&n or panera (since library is closed)
2. writing in my journal
3. writing letters to imaginary people
4. writing letters to real people
5. reading a book
6. read the news
7. getting internship work done
8. preparing for work the next day

yeah okay so it started as a list for a pensive day but i guess i can’t hide away from work forever so i might as well get some work thrown in.

the reason for this is because i am still very very sad. some days, i wake up and all is forgotten, like this morning. but some days, always during church, i just sit in a pool of tears. writing always clears my thoughts and i miss writing letters. plus, i miss panera/b&n. i’ve had wonderful memories at both places.

i need a day to drown in my memories so that i can push them in the back of my brain forever.

according to psychological studies, i have a little less than two months until all is forgiven and forgotten. i can’t wait for that day. but it’s bittersweet just thinking about it.